how to grow next without any dreams and passion

at this point i am feeling very lonely and do not know where to blast , but i am a fighter big fighter i do not say no but this time i feel i am near to the end of some thing that is very special in me . i do not know what i am writing but i know this is helping me mentally to keep me fit . sometimes i fell i am amitabh bachan and some time i think that i am mannu or maanu . oh damm shit today i joined a theatre and will now act to my top to make this thing very beautiful and lovely and become a big actor of the world , will mannu be a blasting phase , will it bring the turn around to the next level or i am gone , do there is defeat or there is winning or the end of phase or game